cakesniffer11

my last exam was math! i just hate it! i have to go back to page 1 of the module because of that 0.21 shortage for exemptions. but anyway, it's over. exams are over! WOOOT.

technically, it's already sembreak (because exams are over) except for that one pending problematic school requirement under BURN that keeps me tied to first sem. Burn can't play our interview cd on his player, so, yesterday, i had to bring my camera to him to have the cd played there. And I have to go back tomorrow to get my camera because he's not done with it yesterday. :D

but yeah. taking away that extra fact, it's already break! WOOOT. and i am driven to make this one PRODUCTIVE. so i have my make-my-break-productive LIST! :D

1. climb my way up to NIRVANA on plurk. :D

2. improve my restaurant at rc on fb.

3. find out why everyone's crazy over gg. (finish the first two seasons, at least)

4. finish bob ong, kate mosse, and jules verne.

5. register for 2010 automated elections..

6. finish ERIN on crunchyroll.

7. come up with a design for my long-overdued corkboard!

8. boost myself for org chem!

so help me God. HAHA. XD

cakesniffer11

I've been travelling a lot lately (And THAT without my parents knowing). Two tuesdays back, I stayed overnight in Bataan. Last wednesday, I took an hour-and-a-half trip to Pampanga by bus. In fact, I just got home last night from Pampanga, after soaking my entire body with the PEPENG paranoia.

*whew*

I just hate the fire of adventure in me. I HATE IT.

cakesniffer11

Ondoy continues to control the entire metro. It's sad that days like these exist. It's sadder that days like these are others' last. I'm lucky that I don't have to experience Ondoy at his worst. I'm lucky that I don't have to be rescued.

I just hope these things end soon. No one deserves to be captives of nature's cruelty. It's unfair. It's not right that others have to go through such cruelty. Everyone deserves to see the morning.

It's still raining and I cannot be happy about it. I can only watch the raindrops touch the ground and wonder how many lives are drenched in danger. It's unfair. It's not right how nature takes advantage of our fragility, our vulnerability. I can only hear the raindrops touch the rooftop and imagine how many voices remain unheard. It's raining and I can only wait for it to stop.

I've always known from the beginning that this isn't a fair world. Life has its biases. Love favors. And at this unfortunate time, it does not favor me.

It's raining and it's not like any other. I don't know exactly how to feel about this. I'm sad but somewhere deeper down my heart, I'm sure I'm happy. It's pathetic. It's not comprehensible. I can't even perfectly write down every word to describe this THING. I think it's partly because I'm a masochist. I like feeling every bit of pain rushing in my system. I like being controlled by ache. I think it's also partly because I'm selfish. I only share this THING to my inanimate and readerless blog. But I think it's mostly because I'm lost and I cannot drive myself back home. It's only me and my cruel driver - cowardice.

It's unfair. It's not right that I should feel this. It's not right that I should be driven by such cruelty. Somehow, I'm drenched. Somehow, I'm in danger. Somehow, I need to be rescued.

It's raining and I can only watch. I can only listen. I can only wait. I can only love.